Damsel solitude

Nay life may show where else it sees,

beneath the folds where eyes peep.

I often wonder for what may I pray,

my lfe was lead to day away.

Closing the closets of dusts in hids,

polishing speaks on congregatd hives.

maroon to fight,least to say,

my life was lead to slay away.

The Goddess to neighbours boon,

my benefactor least coud need.

educator to the lads of town,

illiterate to the lass he least could believe.

Clumped away in dusty swaps,

closing eyes to hardened ground.

least I knew to grief my way,

least I had known to pray.

for all had said : life was meant just to slay away.

No instinct to the hidden play,

sight was less of mother’s ray.

craming long for no ears to lend;

may it be true my life was indeed meant to slay away.

Caught like in spider’s web,

clueless of the wisers head.

no urban,rural, boundries could say,

that I lead my life meant to slay away.

Those innocent days I always knew

butt life pushed the cradle through.

Men passed pain to breath I took,

smiling benefactor in return he took.

None told that life just only meant like mine:just to slay away?

I close my eyes:death scares away,

but can it be scared of my chores of the day.

With dust of pile all day like earning to my worms play,

I still realize my life was caused to please the least nor myself to pause,

I know the corpse will lay nor by else but left to slay away………………..

(V) Post Card

Army Colony

Nerul

Mumbai-400706

 

Dated: December 25,2006

Dear Saba

Wonder cheers of lasting joy and perplexed mind is in state of an inmate to bond. The joy of captivating the true thought and releasing the dim light is pleasing to the crowds. The lapsed mind has foreseen the no where and initatives are growing in complexion. Replay awaited

Lots of Love

me

It not male era…..its human era….

who has the right to make me feel low about my own self. Has gender got to do any thing with who I am. Then why do I hear that when a man grows every one gives him way an when a women grows everyone pushes her back. Why one may say we have so many actresses who join the industry, so many ceo’s of high companies but who are they? Do they earn more than their male counter part. Why? For who are we doing it, just to let one more child to say I miss my mom’s food. Thats all are we worth? Someone worth missing , some one worth being thankful for thats it. And are we some one who are know as our own self. Our children, husbands, fathers all abondon us and then all we remain is a missing some one. And the more they say it, the further they move away from us.

Why even today every 3rd Indian girls first dream is to get married and not have a career, why have they made it mens work, who’s responsible? I am ? you are? we are? Any one who has the right reason to counter cross my queries and then justify them. Is the fact that its happening for ages and will continue to happen change any thing.

Kill me then, I dont want to live in this suffocated world where the constitutions denies its own written laws when provoked by male counterparts. I am not just a humble female but also a humble child who is yet to spring from the worm, will you decied for me if im a girl or a boy or will I have to decied that for my own self????????

its not all well u see?

Gulabo is my aim today i dont mean to deviate from the topic or anyting because i really concerned about her…she’s been keeping ill lately not the medical sort or not even the mental sort…the pscological sort…she has been into a submissive thing and feels the whole world is a waste of time…i just dnt get what is the time she does that is not wasted….but i dnt plan to joke about her today…she has been the top most concern in my life lately and i have been in my worst moods ever because her alarming state has made me a muddle head in such an wierd situation i have ended up because of my employee…well my friend accutally…she never pays…
she seems that the world is upside down…now i dnt get head n tail of that phase….
she feels every one is going away from her…even her own self…she speaks endlessly of not knowing who she is and ends me in a thought that perhaps i dnt know who i am…
its all so confusing…she hasnt spoken about her clouds her candy and leave alone her benefactor or what so ever that was supposed to be…and i dnt want to ask either…i just over heard a conversation when some one did offer her a candy and she burst out in tears….its so hard to fix people when they are busy in their thoughts….
but she did enlighten me that everyone is keeping too busy to have time for her…and i dnt know what she count me for…a no body perhaps…because i sometimes think what am i in her life…
may be i am not her benefactor but i think am i important for her….see im doing nothing emotional about that…but u know seriously when you know some one for too long you would mean something to that some one….see now she’s made me a muddle head too….i hate this……
so since noting is well…..im just a plain and simple reporter….
tc

Vote India Vote

 

I dont know what life has in store for me but my wings are set to take a flight and i am willing to take the hard journey through the rain risking my wings that may go wet….anonymously we all lead a life that has no goals and aims we persieve a prospective that the incoming minds has to unviel and the targeting stratergy has to still focus…..its here that we lose on the common touch and crave to be amoung the rich with no civilities to be one of them….like them or potray them….

 

some try to ape other rich people and other try to convience the crowd that who… they are… they are….but they fail to understand that they belong to the class of society that has convienced themselves that life is going to be just the same

 ” we are middle class”

this has quoted the life of so many that we claim our self to tie our wings and sit back…Id be happy if they sat back to relax and cherish life but instead they sit back to claim that the sabotage that life has created on their existence is irrespective to any consequences of their effort, it is pure, blank and unsympathetically faith.

 

Its not belief that keeps them on but life moves, for what or for whom is out of question and why is beyond the integrity of their civil thought process, but they are bound to create a stir in themselves to de-moralise their power and their inevitable luck comes in hand….

to a million out there I may not  make a difference but to the 10’s in here I can move my arm and toss you over not to move higher up pushing you as I rise, but to show you on the face of reality that I have been able to over come the myth and that is,

 I  tell the world….

“You await me….”

to return the long lost charm and the beauty of life…that not survivers can make but the belivers can give……..

 

I wouldnt speak a soul more till voices are heard and the crowd stands and hails………….

 

VOTE  INDIA VOTE

an initiative that can make a difference

Its yet another day in the clouds????

She is such an uncivilised person I must say no courtesy’s for my great piece of art and my effective outlet of her hidious tale and her lunitic depiction of her fairy land…now I just not her types…she has to get her property and ownership papers right…she says the law court would release her suit in 3 months from this fine day…and I believe that she will be relived of her hearings and I of her stories…as she states that 3 months from now she will leave for an unknown land that she calls her own…what ever it may be and where ever it may lie I just dont care…I dare not ask…because if Im under the lie detector test and I refuse to tell of her ada it would be a sin on the whole…

well i cant commit 2 sins at once…one to have her back and the other to have her threating me…so God forbid…

 

I have a new scheme in mind…but I must not say…if some one of her well wishers read my post…I know hardly a soul cares to read it…but that 0.000000000001% chance of saviour would be gone…so I do it all real calm and quiet…its not a hydrogen bomb….Im damn sure about it……

 

Now may I get a little paid now…and tell you what you want to hear…but who listens….no one comes and no one goes..its a year or two for this tale to go on and on…im still bored…who tells her…ok ok back to the topic…..but I never had a topic…who said I did…I dont write for the heck of it please…if you think I do…think again…“I do” those where the fine words that Angelina Jolie told the Brad Pitt guy…

 

Ok this thing that I speak so much not to speak is because…our hidious creature has just decribed a day…so I dont know what to write exactly…I often interpret her 6-7months affair in a 6 inch scale…but one day…it would not even make a word…..

 

I can make head and tale of it frankly…on the clouds….i never been there…those who have please tell me how was it…my flights never made me sit and write stories there….I do it just fine among them…but this fine lady has sat on it all day long…I pity the cloud…how did all that weight stay all day long……

 

Talking Science…its not possible….you will fall…its a mass of semi frozen vapours…now they arnt ice…its like high pressure gas and thingy now….I dont like this physics chemistry or biology what ever comes into play but its just not possible……

 

What if she lied!!!!!!!!!think………….think…………..think………….hmmmm……….hmmmmm…….ehhhhhhh……..

 

where where we…. chocolates…..I just love chocolates……but I dont remember eating them today……and no body talked about it so……

 

I was talking about my lady…..she would be like this

” Lady my lady sat on the cloud

Lady my lady said all aloud

Lady my lady had a great fall

Lady my lady made me a call “

now thats pathetic isnt it…..she is on cloud 9 or heaven 7 I only know

“six sixes and four fours”

thats what those men with a wooden plank and a red sphere say when they beat the red spere with the plank hard and say how dare you say your the smartest…..

 

Im bored today…so are you….I dont have a think to say wat  to do……..

good bye…..my lady……..

Obama…makes it a clear world??????

I could see my self filled with irritation as the evening decended and my grand father contantly hooked to the news channel Times now…i must say that the reader is one sensible man by the name Anurag..now as if they are paying me to write his name but I was a very keen observer of the Mumbai Blast with him before me so I do praise his choice of worlds and bulleting question but yesterday was one such day that I felt he talked of foolish stuff now if Obama be President why dont we just wait and watch what he does next…he just poped the world of news journalists of Times Now about how the people felt there and with the same stuff repeated and chorus of songs hailing the silly OBAMA SONG.. pretty much an odd hailing but well he’s a celeb and I must say he’s more important than the boy who fell into the well and the Sadhvi who could feel the Lady Goddess in her…so his celeb fame is more reconing than that….

But let me ask…how many India President speeches have you heard and how many can you count up to ten well I frankly say I know the first and the last and the Present and the rest as it is, is history so what do I care for…but I must say our own HISTORY has taught us better of the US Presidents…I can name enough on 1 palm at least …Washington, Linchon, Rooservelt, Kennedy, Clinton , Bush Sr, Bush Mr Disaster, and the new elect and now President Obama…so where are we inculcating patriotism..

getting back to the events last evening…..the Obama thing went to the Church and has a nice talk with God now as the say he is the 44th President he isnt the 44th in the no of President Leauges, the oaths have been repeated 52 times so that mean a many like Bush Disaster who lavished the White house in fame of his Wars and crashed Government….

In my memory the electorial is more demanding that when we got to know Bush was back again for the next four years…so it just added a flavour to the recipe that he had to retire in Texas and not hagger the world with 24×7 luxuary that the entire state on a whole couldnt afford…so if OBAMA gave 2 years to this may be he paid large enough to get all those facilities at the White house….so even if it was some one else even he/she would have done the years too…..so noting to say wooh..!!! his hard work paid…..its  not his hard work that is alone sufficient to pay him…for his salary is solely meant to come if he has done much good for his country and its not much of his appitiser if its just a good night sleep with no plan reaching a micro mile of his scheme…

So I believe…. well they say in GD i read an artical in the newspaper now since im not advertising the newspapers so the man i mean the guy who wrote it said never start with believe….so dont cut my marks even if I say it over and over again…

So after the meeting with the Pope and the Lady in a yellow dress I must say she dazzled in the winter sun and the handsome Obama .. i do admire his persona..and the pretty Sasha and Malia were stars in a day I can say if my daddy was so great a man…that I know he is…greater a man and the most admirable man on earth and a gentle man I cannot stop praise…”I love you , Papa.”..but i would sure weep in joy…Papa you won it the worlds your stage and I your Princess…

So as a visitor the Lady and the President elect visited the White House for the last time and the host for the last time were the Lady and President Bush…its so totally cute that the family the Obama family with the President is welcomed in the administration family with even Sasha and Milia having their roles like their father and mother…

He’s a guy who can teach family planning, anti-racism, girl rights all at once which is not such a major problem to say but by and large is at its peak on any kilometer scale…

So the the Town Hill was filled all this while a 2million to crowds and a few 10 millions here and there with all the viewers all over the world……so you know it was not such a big affair as I write….but i know i could be sued by the Indian government to show lack patriotism if I ever stand for elections as i commited this crime against the Hindu party of the Muslim party…and then again I dnt lad in Saree and dont speak here in Hindi…now isnt that rubbish…

Getting back to work… all the Presidents alive ie. from the 39th President were the best in the list….but let me say when Obama came the air changed-

“If I at a podium of the world find thy soul at grace and the millions to face who hear me breath and watch me speak and hail me at home all the worlds brief on networking sets and pedeling seats and the claim of those who protest his coming still sat by the tv’s thou to count his short commings…but the media got paid and the channels boomed…the security claimed to stop Kennedy faith..and when he took hold the world took its breath and then…..silence silences…”

So when he spoke I gased on my set and for the next minutes my eyes neither blinked and my lips press tight and in his simple words he drove a dream, a dream that was to come to light all demands met and all the peace, all the recessions to be met with, a leader spoke, an African on the American dice who would have an ancestorial connection to the White house made by his fellow people slaved or free where the labours and this man who would reflect their price in a better form would turn the toil to world at large and stop the east and the west at bars and join the nation of the whites pride and retaliate the mistakes of those very white…

when things went wrong the white blamed us,,our skin was a sake for a fault we did, slave us and treat us cruelly, revenge us for a mini deed done against them why did we not rise all against them…. but today the whites have reached a state of blunder for the world their prestige has been shaken and their faith blasted off but we will not enslave them as we the children of God have learnt to humbly treat those who have done us wrong but help them….they need to be guilty now and keep low of their pride as pride is no skin and no complexion its ones own and every one has the right to possess it and take gaurd of it….but we the humble ones have forgiven them yet they donot seek their appologies and yet we donot bend forth them but speak to their faith and believe not in violence as violence will not only destroy the people who made this hatred rise but innocent white who never did and those like us who live in the hidden tit bits where the white live and try to create harmony from the discrimination….so let us be safe and not destroy the peace of this world and instead help it grow for if we do the same as they did to us where would the difference be….we arnt the same we need the world to know and we are far ahead of the times of the youth that make the world…..

I cant deny but I cried at what he spoke…..tears rolled down my eye and one wish remains…..that stage is mine where the world would know me by name and when I speak I conquer a million hearts and a billion souls…..

But i wish more a mirage I can say……. that if this was spoken in my land to my poeple…….INDIA 

  

being just frds…

now since gulabo is out on a vacation thats like a break for me…..i got to sit back and watch the people from my window…thats a bit boring but im trying to adjust to that as i feeling those hours which she spend with me chit chatting are now time slogging hours as i feel so quiet….

but alas she has returned you can say a rebirth..she is so obliged to all her readers and says their prayers came true maybe one was not enough…who is to tell her that she doesnt have a million fans like the popular Asin these days not that she feels she is an angel on earth a hard competer to Ashwariya for if she joins B-town…well this new angel from her hiding has said that life has played its game on me this time a perharps a good one…she likes these games but it wasnt just the other day she told me that sports and she were not just two poles but to seperate planets…i dont know what she means then by saying all these silly things..but who am I to say im her paid servant and she my honourable wise employee for this blog that runs no less and pays not a sum to these people who made it all go round.

Well its kind of a joke that I heard when she said…the game has turned bad…i just dont get her..first, she likes a no-no to games, then she says she enjoys the game, and now the games going bitter…is she in her real mind of her fairy wings have migrated her to the asylum…

She has an intruder in her joy a blessed person who wishes to snatch her soul and own it..she refuses but she has to give way to the new owner it pays a higher tax and the government is soulfully happy to have the new owner in place of the miser of her…but she tell me it isnt the house or property that keeps her on an alarm or the governments joy but the fact that the new owner is less deserving than she is and the property still belongs to her in the sheets of disguise…she seems to be so confused or i am for if any one of you can please interpret my fellow friend please do as i know not what she makes me write…may be tomorrow she makes me write my will with all my property belonging to her and shows the court and then ill be sans bread and butter of maybe a contract of life time slavery would be enough…im a poor soul with nothing to gain but all to lose….

these owners please help…

she is being just friends with the government thats it but yet she owns the property and has a disguised papers in the name of the new owner or is it the other way round…sherlock holmes is being called……

Wats in a debate??

its interesting that we sit back to debate highly belonging to all the grades of society using our polish languages which are unread and never understood by the people in need who never realise taht people of such polish class do think of them…..they would feel highly obliged that they are atleast a matter of concern but may i ask who has told them till date that they remain a growing mark in what these polish men call debates….i believe its a bit of an on growin concern that to make the issue more realistic a moement we require to do sumthing substancial to improve the condition of the enforced situation of child labour or for the matter any other situation that arises in our country….we are no less ignorant even if we say that we are dedicating our precious time which we would hav used for better mean to put to use and sit back an write an essay or jot down for a debate as if you feel you hav really put your time to it….go out move on and do such ting that real sum thing that can change the entire situation……you are aware not spreading awareness out here…..wats the awareness that the country is poor that people are shelling lives to make a living…….arnt you done with the public stunt and publicity……sit back your least needed…..to  make any change jst write for it……do sumthing and then ill belive that you have the move to the right path

answer me how many people of that class know your dire concern and accept your sympathy that you give from the heat……are you payin them for that patience dt they should sit and listen taht you hav all your pity for them…..they neeed the money and you need your public stunt to show that you care…..do u????

man if every guy cares for the growin sitaution they simply sit back relax and best debate….wo gains out of it…tv debates….for the polish and interested…they listen or watch….switch off the tv and go to sleep as if they havent been to school…read the verses help the needy help the poor till they graduated to the world…if they cared they would have done that when they were feed into those chips of knowledge by that man who had a stick of cane and who had feed so much into their brains that they hav neither forgot to register nor forgot to practise….

who ar ewe debating for tos who dont kw wats a debate……dos who dont need sympathy….they dnt need that affection if pity…..they need the hard core cash…..they need food…….they dnt hav much to dream…they need their daily bread…….milk their off springs….feed their families…..

Cancellin appointments

Now I wonder what would it take if i cancelled my appointments to give it to my own self…..1st thing I dnt have any and 2nd what would I have done if i had…..man the biggest appointment in life is commitment all of us have that all the time…..we’re still not working and yet we’re so fledged to dedicate our self to a task….now its our choice we take it or not…..and we cant……you dnt want to…..please no body ever asked you…you have to do that stuff any way…..your not the commanding officer here its sum one else…

you’ve to take care of all the stuff yet you dont want to…..now what a delima……you have an appointment you dont want yet you have to be there, dedicated or not who cares, and you have a better alternative to that but who asked you any way……

Im always stuck with this mess all the time may that be home or else where i have commited to sumthing so much by “sum one else” but then i realize that all along Im scheduled to do sumthing else which was pre- decieded……but oops!!!! you have given your word…..not that u havent given it to the first person but then he or she can understand….but the grand finale is that at the last moment you end up doing that task that was your most lucrative and the secondary option and not your moment of what…one may call fun………

 

now that life diaries…….

Short hand erroritic cases

my apologies to all the takers i guess people have complaint about my language being compaired to the latin scripts i mean its taking me hours checking al my spellings go right……

we are so adicted to these skills that we all should make a dictonary of our work for all those who dont understand short hand….

for

ma-my

sud-should

cud-could

coz-because

nvr-never

hv-have

d-the

dt-that

dis-this

dr-there

dos-those

apprvd-approved

4-for,four as per need

2-to,two alternatively

nw-now

id-i would

whr-where

u-you

bt-but

btr-better

ppl-people

nw i cant list all of them id do them when and whr u need it….its ma advice dt u sud tak care of your language for the non short hand users…..

bt rather then handin them d dictonary id btr get ma hold on the regular one…….english i mean…..

all d best 4 me

nw sorry…….4 d short hand……id try my best