its not all well u see?

Gulabo is my aim today i dont mean to deviate from the topic or anyting because i really concerned about her…she’s been keeping ill lately not the medical sort or not even the mental sort…the pscological sort…she has been into a submissive thing and feels the whole world is a waste of time…i just dnt get what is the time she does that is not wasted….but i dnt plan to joke about her today…she has been the top most concern in my life lately and i have been in my worst moods ever because her alarming state has made me a muddle head in such an wierd situation i have ended up because of my employee…well my friend accutally…she never pays…
she seems that the world is upside down…now i dnt get head n tail of that phase….
she feels every one is going away from her…even her own self…she speaks endlessly of not knowing who she is and ends me in a thought that perhaps i dnt know who i am…
its all so confusing…she hasnt spoken about her clouds her candy and leave alone her benefactor or what so ever that was supposed to be…and i dnt want to ask either…i just over heard a conversation when some one did offer her a candy and she burst out in tears….its so hard to fix people when they are busy in their thoughts….
but she did enlighten me that everyone is keeping too busy to have time for her…and i dnt know what she count me for…a no body perhaps…because i sometimes think what am i in her life…
may be i am not her benefactor but i think am i important for her….see im doing nothing emotional about that…but u know seriously when you know some one for too long you would mean something to that some one….see now she’s made me a muddle head too….i hate this……
so since noting is well…..im just a plain and simple reporter….
tc